Sometimes I don’t feel good enough…

Time is slipping away. Responsibilities piling up. As soon as there’s a moment to breathe, the urge to go - to move - to push - comes full force. A mad love affair with the hustle. I choose her over everyone - even myself. All of the things left undone are haunting me and pulling me deeper.. back into the black hole of.. Who knows? But it’s cold and dark and damp down there, and it’s my least favorite place to be. Please don’t send me back there. When does the silence finally break? When do the words finally flow? When is the next step finally revealed? When? When? I’m addicted to the rush, addicted to the feeling of ripping my heart from my chest and leaving it beating on the table in front of you. Can’t get enough of the vulnerability of the human race.. tell me how it hurts, how you’re fucking things up.. Tell me so I can discover that, yes, we’re all constantly smashed into a million pieces, just trying to glue ourselves back together. I’m a mess. I’m a mess.  I’m a mess. The chaos is my every day, the turning of the tides is always, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. What’s next? Where do we go from here? Let’s dance. Let’s go through and experience this magical gift of life and let’s do it our way. Let’s rise together, blemishes and all, let’s not be afraid to share our weird AF personality, let’s proudly wear our CRAZY, and let’s rule this fucking world. I love you...

Are you acting from a place of TRUST, or from a place of FEAR?

Risk is a NECESSARY piece of the puzzle. It is a requirement for true success, especially in the land of entrepreneurship where we live. 😉 I’ll never forget making that first big risk in my coaching business, which was simply to quit my previous business and go ALL IN on this new venture. I had minimal money (maybe $1,000/month coming from my previous business), but since I quit the last business, I had a lot of time. So I invested it. All of it. 12+ hours a day. I also invested thousands of dollars which quickly escalated to tens of thousands of dollars. At this point, I’m well over $100,000 in making investments in my business mentorship. On top of that, I’ve invested MULTIPLE hundreds-of-thousands of dollars on employing my team, paying for things like website design, accounting, bookkeeping, business travel, and the ocassional Facebook ad. The risks are huge when you have big dreams. But - so are the rewards… so I’d say that the risks are worth it. Yes. The risks are ALWAYS worth it. No matter how big, no matter how scary, no matter how “reckless” they appear to be. They are always, always, worth it. Every time. So this morning while I was journaling, the topic of TRUST came up. More specifically, the following question: Are you acting from a place of trust or from a place of fear? Oooh shit. I’ve for sure been acting from a placr of fear in regards to this one thing. This one thing I’ve not been able to bring to life for awhile now. That I’ve very clearly been...

What I did this week and how it changed the game for me & my biz

Earlier this week, I spent 3 days in an AirBnb in downtown Toronto. I flew in my social media manager/assistant/twin badass Crystal, to spend those days with me, gettin’ shit done. And get shit done, we did. In addition to taking pictures and behind-the-scenes Insta Stories the whole time, eating unlimited amounts of vegan food, and sitting on our balcony, staring at the incredible view of the city, we also: >> Shut down my Facebook group of over 6,600 people and started a new one (you can join here, it’s free). >> Re-launched UPGRADED, my most popular 1:1 coaching program EVER (we start soon; message me for deets). >> Mapped out our re-launch for The Relentless Entrepreneur (round 3 - I love this program so much!). Doors open Nov. 1st! >> Re-vamped our Instagram strategy, and ended up with HUNDREDS of new followers and way more engagement in just a few days (with NO BOTS, I should add!). In between all of this, I also: - Created content for current on-going programs. - Wrote and wrote and wrote some more.  - Had messenger conversations about UPGRADED once it was officially launched. - Journaled… a lot.  - Made a menu plan and ordered groceries for the rest of the week. - Decided on a new Facebook ads strategy and started getting all of that in place.  - Did my daily money work. (Of course!) When I got home after taking Crystal to the airport, I crashed on the couch for a solid 2 hours. I was SO tired, but in the best way possible. The truth is, I LOVE being busy....

It’s all your fault!

Can tell you something that might sting a little? Something that might make you want to punch me for saying, but that you KNOW you need to hear? Yes? Okay, cool. I will then. 🙂  So here’s the truth, and it’s the truth that you KNOW but yet you’re afraid to admit to yourself:  YOU ARE WHERE YOU ARE BECAUSE OF DECISIONS YOU’VE MADE IN THE PAST. That means, of course, that it’s all your fault.  I told you that it might sting a little. 😉  The sooner you can accept that everything that has, or hasn’t, happened in your life, all comes down to the decisions that you’ve made (and are currently making), the sooner you can actually change what needs to be changed and finally achieve the results that you really want.  You need to DECIDE what it is you want and then make decisions based on THAT. Want more money?  What DECISIONS do you need to make in order for more money to flow into your life? Want a new relationship?  What DECISIONS to you need to make in order to make space for this person to appear in your life? It always comes down to the decisions you make and the actions you take.  Deciding is great, and it’s for sure the starting point, but alongside it comes action. Action that will bring that decision to life and make it your new reality.  Don’t you see? You’re keeping yourself stuck because of the thoughts in your head, the decisions you make, and the actions you don’t take. It’s never going to get easier. It’s only...

From my soul to yours.. this is for you.

Just so you know –  You’re doing a great job.  Be proud of how far you’ve come, because you’ve come a long way. Everything is working out in your favor. Trust that, because it’s the truth. Believe in yourself - it’s your greatest superpower.  You are worthy of everything you desire - don’t give up on it, or you. It’s all going to be okay - MORE than okay, even - it’s going to be AMAZING. One day you will look back on this period of your life and you will say to yourself “I’m so grateful for that time” because it will have lead you to where you’ve always wanted to be. Stand in your power and always say what’s on your heart, even if other people don’t agree, or like it. Stay true to yourself. Be your own cheerleader. Continue to fight for what you believe in. Everything is always perfect, so long as you choose to see it that way. Enjoy the process of getting “there”, it’s more important than the final destination. You are enough. You are MORE than enough. Everything you feel that you can’t have, is possible for you. It’ ALL possible for you. All that you desire is already yours - just tap in and receive it! What you feel inside of you is real - don’t push it away. Feel your feelings, even the “bad” ones, for they are there to tell you something that you need to know. Your thoughts, beliefs, and opinions are all valid. Don’t ever hide them. Ruthlessly eliminate people from your life that don’t support you....
Choose to let it all go, to be free, once and for all, and to truly feel ABUNDANT in all ways

Choose to let it all go, to be free, once and for all, and to truly feel ABUNDANT in all ways

Today’s realization: It’s a pretty cool feeling when you get an unexpected $2,000+ bill and you don’t freak out. In fact, you say ”oh, that’s it?” and pay it straight away without flinching. Guess this money mindset stuff actually works.  Ahh how much things have changed in the last 3 years! I remember being so fucking SCARED of money. Terrified to let it go. The fear of spending money (even on things I needed, like groceries and gas in the car) had me in a chokehold ALL of the time. And when an unexpected bill came in the mail? I just about lost my shit. The panic and the anxiety would be so strong that I started getting heart palpitations and periods where I’d struggle to breathe. Any time I’d receive money, I would feel scared to spend it. I tried to hoard it, thinking that if I just had some money stashed away, I would feel better. And I did. Until the next unexpected bill came in the mail. The problem wasn’t that I didn’t know how to make money. The problem wasn’t that I was an over-spender. The problem wasn’t that I didn’t know how to save. The problem was that I had deep-rooted money issues to solve. I didn’t realize this until I started working with a mentor who pointed it out to me. I didn’t know when my bills were due I wasn’t setting aside money for taxes I wasn’t calculating my income/expenses properly  I didn’t pay off my credit cards on time I would forget to pay bills (especially paper bills that would come to...